I arrived at school and saw Douglas sitting down on the bench waiting for me. I smiled and walked towards him. “God, he is so cute,” I thought to myself. He looked up and smiled when he saw me walking towards him. “Hello beautiful.” “Hello yourself,” I said to him, still smiling. He got up and hugged me, kissing me on my forehead. I sighed happily, “This is pure heaven.” “How was your sleep?” Douglas asked me. “Hm? Oh, it was okay. I had a weird dream though…” I said. “A weird dream, what was it about?” “Nothing in particular…” I replied, feeling a bit uneasy. We had at least ten minutes before our class, so we started walking to class together. On the way to class, I saw Jacob sitting and chatting with his friends. I could feel my face getting hot. Memories of my dream came flooding back into my mind, making me wet. “Are you okay, Jenny?” Douglas asked me, looking concerned as he touched my face. “Yeah, I am,” I lied as I took my eyes off Jacob to look at Douglas. “Are you sure?” “Yes… I’ll see you in class okay? I want to go to the restroom first,” I lied again, needing to get away and cool myself down. “Okay, but hurry, you only have seven more minutes before class starts,” Douglas ankara escort said, as he checked his watch. “Okay,” I said, as I walked off without a second glance. As I was walking towards the bathroom, Jacob looked up and saw me. He got up and smiled, thinking I was going towards him.I thought about doing that, but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I was afraid that if I did, I’d end up doing something outrageous. Something like kissing him, even though I already had Douglas. I walked passed him fast and went into the bathroom. I was glad to find that it was empty when I opened the door and stepped inside. I closed the door and rested my head on it, taking a deep breath to calm my nerves. “Why is this happening to me?” I asked myself. I couldn’t understand what was going on. I love Douglas, but I’m attracted to Jacob? Is that even possible? “Pull yourself together, Jenny. It was just a dream. Why are you making it such a big deal? You’re not attracted to Jacob, the feelings from the dream was nothing, remember that,” I said to myself, while looking at myself in the mirror. But even I knew that as I said those words, it wasn’t true. Yes, the dream was just a dream, ankara escort bayan but I felt like it opened my eyes to feelings that I’d been trying to subconsciously cover and ignore. I took a deep breath and walked to the door and opened it. I walked out of the bathroom and Jacob blocked my path. “Hey, Jenny,” he said, smiling. I backed up and just looked at him. “Don’t I get a ‘hello Jacob’?” he said, as he stepped closer to me. “I have to get to class,” I said, not meeting his eyes. “I waited for your text all weekend, do you know that?” Jacob said. He took the last step towards me, closing the distance between us. He was so close to me that I could smell his cologne. Memories of my dream came flooding back into me, making me hot all over. It was like I was possessed as my hands reached up and touched his face. I looked him in the eyes and whispered, “Kiss me.” Jacob leaned in towards me and kissed me on my lips, slowly at first, and then fast and rushed. I moaned as I felt the contact of our lips. I wrapped my arms around his neck, as he wrapped his arms around my body. Everything in me yelled at me to stop the kiss and walk away, but I ignored them and continued escort ankara kissing Jacob. He was the first one to break the kiss and look at me. He smiled and said, “Jenny, oh Jenny.” “Jacob,” I said, in a breathy voice, not recognizing that it was me who said it. “I suppose you just forgot to text me this weekend?” Jacob said, smiling. “This weekend?” I asked, confused for a moment, before memories of me and Douglas came rushing back, reminding me that I have been with Douglas all weekend. I gasped, and backed away from Jacob, horrified that I had kissed him when I was still in love with Douglas. “Jenny?” Jacob said. As I backed away from him, I saw the confusion on his face. I wonder what he saw on mine. Was it guilt and confusion? I felt both, but I also felt passion… I wanted Jacob, and I loved Douglas. My mind was filled with both men as I ran to my car and drove away from the school, desperate to get as far away as I could and clear my head before I went crazy. *** I drove home, but stayed in my car looking at my apartment. “What is wrong with me? I can’t be in love with Douglas, but feel sexually attracted to Jacob. Can I? This doesn’t make any sense at all. I can’t feel sexually attracted to Jacob just because of my dream. Or, have I felt this all along?” I breathed out and put my head on the steering wheel, confused with all the mixed emotion going on in my body. My phone buzzed and I grabbed it to see who was calling me.